Lost and Found

When I was small I felt guilty of innocence and of that childish acts. No one notice that I was growing Bhutanese and Others took I as small People used to call me "Nonsense Small Playing Kid" Now i agreed that but I don't agree either. Now as a grown up Young man I fee when ever I see Kids playing "Wow, they will have so much to say when they grow up" Its not just they are small they don't have a feelings. They are wondrous things to say If given the chance for them to say. I remember my niece who order like a boss "Acho, Don't waste time on Facebook chat and Girl Friend stuffs" They now at least know how and whats happening around them. So I feel I "Lost" of the charm(ness) of Childhood.I never take things seriously. i didn't how country was functioning and how people were acting, hows People were. I just one thing that King was my Dad and queen was my "Ruling Mom". I learned everything from them. Sometimes their Quarrel, sometimes their blows. I remember my dad hitting on Mom's face. Now i realized"Were they actually trying for title in Boxing match" I also learned Drinking Ara was village's tradition and killing alive "chicken" was also part of game for awesome dinner. I remember one day my grandfather made to kill chicken. I was feeling nervous to do that but in other hand I wanted to try new experiment. I did that too. On half way I squeezed my dear chicken's neck and my hand were trembling, and my dear was half death and half alive. I gave up. Thankfully my grandfather did my unfinished work done. Those were some moments I really enjoyed recollecting now. Its not that bad memories I had but I remembered my poor dad lending a loan to school me. Those were such a panic moment when I sit and think of it. Now I lost that moment of childhood.

Now, as childhood faded I "Found" our that I am old enough and had grasp all moments of childhood days. Now I tell my friends. I don't wanted to show my children the odd side. But this could also mean I may be exaggerating. I may not predict like that of Bhutan suddenly building up for good or better or for worst.I have seen now as grown up man. The true test of Schooling and colleging has given me so much to understand the true nature of everything existing.I found myself that I am grown up.

BUT I feel I am lost somewhere again. I feel I don't understand the meaning news papers headlines like  "Gyelposhing Land case", "OAG smells nothing on Gyelposhing Land case". There  are lots I don't understand and have to enlighten myself. I wish "GOD" could give me password to unlock the secret behind. There are lots of instances related or unrelated to my own life going up and down on lives. Thats why I am simply Lost somewhere.

As I grow up, at last I feel I can find meaning to it and share my joys with my Dad, Mom and my my left grandfather that I am grownup child of theirs.

Unspoken Truth

People told me I was brilliant guy when I was in lower grades.They hoped a great to come after my class twelve.My poor parents wanted me to become doctor after I took science stream in my secondary school. So I was happy among the Baylling students. I reached there.I studied sometimes day and night. Teachers reminded to burn midnight oil, I still what actually that meant. But I must have put my light switch ON(thank god! We had light in my room.) my mom called me time and again to remind me of my studies. I replied I am studying and literally I meant it. But I don’t know how it went wrong. Something on science books never entered my brain. I wasted much of its content. I was poor to get what is meant by that equations and long derivation of mathematics. Then I remembered when I said to my family “I want to take Arts subject” but had they given me a chance I could have landed to somewhere I belonged to. Its not their foul either. I did worst in BHSEC examinations and especially Science subjects.

Then after my exam then came result tensions. Let’s forget that tension I thought even that I finish up with studies and continue as villagers’ boy but fate never let me do that. I am happy that I landed in ‘Peak of Learning’ of Bhutan, the Sherubtse College. I was happy either. I reached her as if I can defeat all those fellow mates and thought to prove I am stronger than all of them. “Was I really exaggerating?” I felt I did that too. I studied here too for sometimes but after sometimes I knew the real taste of college life.

I made lots of friends here,. They are still nice and good. I even tried my luck to have girlfriend but shame on me I failed on this part. Nevertheless I have to move on without girlfriend. Do I really need? I think “NO” made me good being too. Then I became non sense student of all, not not criminal I can something better too.
I never thought to study but the words from outside “Enjoy,Damn majin(give no damn), its college life” made me to think twice and I travelled to that road which was liked by many young people like me. I went to walk with some beautiful faces and I went to nearby village for local alcohol (ara) with some dirty people like me. It was moment of fun when you do the undiscovered things in life. Then I tried puffing the air inside out. Thought I know there is lots going on with TCA (I hope you Bhutanese know what it meant by)

I wanted to tell every people there lots of going inside me and outside me. I remained in bed for so long that when I wake up I might have missed classes and at last I have to beg for someone to grant me for examination. They gave me last chance, or else I will be not allowed to see any of question papers. Now I don’t think theres is need for examination or not. I don’t care it all. They know one thing that’s to have only content knowledge but they never look for outer view. I am not blaming but we Bhutanese students are for pass mark. If you get through that cut of point you are one year old for that game of pass mark or else you are out of the game.

My intention is to get Degree Certificate for sake of my parents so that I can show to them( I know they will be happy enough). But I am not really sure if fit into any criteria demand by employer. I also have that fate too wait for. I am sure i can prove the world that I at least can post on my small blog, I can read mails, I can listen music, I can type on keyboard and I can speak with low English and I can be me at last. I think I am doing lots more now than ever.
P.S wait I have more to post too

My thoughts Only..

“A newspaper is a private enterprise owing nothing whatsoever to the public, which grants it no franchise. It is therefore affected with no public interest.” – William Peter Hamilton, a former publisher of the Wall Street Journal

Are we really becoming like the Bhutanese, where newspapers owe nothing to the public? It’s your own answer to put on your head. They are well educator in most part of rural Bhutanese. The media are the principal carriers of the life blood of democracy: information. It is their responsibility, therefore, to educate and inform the opportunities for citizens to make political decisions well and cast ballots on the basis of their own informed choice. So, I feel we need strong sense of respect to them. I don’t mean Government or political parties or any Bhutanese have no respect for them. I am saying in case you are not going to do or you feel bad on them.

I am not analyst or writer or big headed man. I am just kind of man with interest or nothing interests me well. But reading papers made me put my thoughts to scribble. The reporter bringing updates on many loopholes by our own Government servant (Ministries) or the miscommunication by Communication minister and Jignonymous on twitter keeps me well informed. There is more that I could lean to learn from papers. Will government ready to accept its beauty and to do list of their way to enlighten the common people like us? Please show us if you want to respect them (No necessarily bow them)?  We people need to do the same.

Bhutan is peaceful country, that was by gossip or history that world knows about it. Democracy in Bhutan has made more peaceful or (un)i peaceful. Its sign that in near future Bhutan is going somewhere where we have not able to been. Are you ready to explore there? Or am I exaggerating more? It needs wise citizens: experienced citizens who know they don’t know everything, and who suspect those who think they do, especially when they try to camouflage their arrogant will to power over others. That’s what democrats need it.

Media Experts says that true Journalists are ones who has courage to fearless sense-making reports and making your head moves around the clock. For media I respect. Are you Mc Donald? -Because I am loving it.

She is drunk

Its a second part of "Thonangs from my college". I felt to write because
i could not stand to see them drinking. Have you ever wonder and
thought what is the most common thing sherubtse girls learn from
reaching in college?
1. Going for a walk.
2. Dressing like a mini doll model seen in TV.
3. Trying alcohol for the first time.
Next time if you hear of eve teasing, raping, fatherless child ( you
don't have to do DNA). It is costly. Girls themselves is responsible
for it. First reason they want to try drinking for the first time,
they go out with male friends. I wish that male friends was someone
who is really caring their friendship but it is rare when both get
drunk. Though negative times negative becomes positive in maths, yet
it won't happen in this situation. Then she later may cry carrying
growing football inside. So i am not rying to hit away girls but you
are trying to start your problem, do you understand english now?
Second i don't understand why some of them like going out and they say
going for a walk later in the evening is charm of our college. What
charm? Cold charm? Or other charm? Man if you are reading this, please
understand that these is yet another reason for grwoing football. Some
go for good reason but especially male and female together late night
seems to have some masala on it.
Wearing trendy shoes(they see it 'through druyul eyes'), wearing mini
skirt as they are going for Miss bikini wear, colouring their hair to
red, yellow, brown and green is seen anywhere and Sherubtse is no
exeption. Sherubtse should because we cant ignore the modernization
smell. But is it really seen 'through druyul eyes'? I am directing
this to you, are you listenning you green headed? Society and people
near by murmur '' college students' behavior'' i can smell dirty on
their comments.
So please don't try to change college but let us begin from root and
try to change ourselves. Then there won't be case to trace back DNA
test for last 25 years or there woult not be a dirty comments or whats
else, you say sherubtse will shine forever. But i am leaving choice to
you. Good luck

Facebooking

If you ask to 11 year old boy if he know about facebook? He will clearly mentiona bout Friends, Photos, Statuses, Poker game(Poke) and City Villie and so many other appilcations. Well done that boy who actually are in a position to answe all those. Well Its also good way that facebook has joined many can socialise and it has become nice social networking of all. Facebook can connect us to the world.

yet there is another question of under age children abusing its usuage, some adult posting nudity and making others curious and slef sexual conflict. although facebook restrict that but how thet can control million and millions of users. So there by many lives is made worsen up by facebook.

lets come to student, they will say they are using because they wanted to relax after studies but their relaxation will go beyond the limit of time. the just waste it their time. At last poor performance and even late for classes beacuse they were busy inside the lab browsing facebook in name of assignments. Some year later faceboook will rule the world. So before we make them to rule and be their slave it is out turn to fight back and know the limit and its disadvanges. So our Government should alsothink over it and frame certain rules of this site. It is just a waste but our goverment leader PRIME MINISTER also have the account (another way of imposing rule on it). For those who want to ruin your time create multiple account as much you can; form mobile web or internet type www.facebook.com and see the difference yourself. All the best new comers but THINK???????

RJ

when i was small I used to fancy the way radio jockey talk on air and i sometimes used to copy their accent alot and imitate them. Thankfully my dad had one philllips radio and Philllips was considered nicest radio found in the village, so naturally I would boost them of it especially my way to school. And this feeling of wanting to be Like my own favorite RJ Ugyen Tshering Nadik(bbs) grew stronger and stronger. Part of becoming this dream in reality came true in a small way by becoming sometimes MC in the my high school. I though have poor speaking but had great passion for English.And i used to participate in every program of any radio station.'Voice your Choice' of radio Valley, 'Heart to Heart' of Kuzoo FM, Dj request of Radio Waves and live calling of centennial radio and Sunday Rquest show of bbs. From there i picked to learn their way of styling and soon I became Interested in doing so.

It was then dream come true as I joined in Sherubtse College became a Radio Jockey of Sherubtse FM, a small radio station run by student body FINA. and comprises of student RJ. I was happy,yet who won't be happy if your drream come true. again  for to gain more i intern in centennail radio.

you might be thinking this is just my dream, in fact there is lots hundred like me who would love to try like me. Radio serve as a link between people especially in remote areas. They are infromative and entertaining but at the same time we should also need to think about people behind Microphone day and night making their voice thrown out of loud. Have you ever wonder why some of the RJs from Kuzoo Fm has walked away. It might be for some their personal reasons but for some as I know is their monthly pay. As all the radio stations are locateds in Thimphu and by amounting your salary of 7000 or sth is not really enough for Thimphuans where house rent has crossed 10000 per month. So whose problem is that? the Rj themselves because most of them has seek job after class 12 trapped in unemployment jail or they proprietor of the station (P lease do something or else villagers would cry for their favorite Radio Jockey).

Next time when you hear my voice on air remember this was my dream and will be happy on my voice as I affor living in Thimphu. So that there would be lots of my fan waiting outside ON AIR room to see me in real.
zhonba is on air....listen...

Clock Tower at Sherubtse.

Every movie that scene will first show the clock tower, BBS filming for news will show clock tower, my friend has wall paper on his laptop the beauty of clock tower, the SMS(Sherubtse Media Society) started monthly newsletter titled 'Tower' and so does clock tower add beauty to the Sherubtse College. And we are proud Sherubtsean that we got such a beauty thing at our own sight.

I just see just the physical beauty; I have never seen its beauty inside. In simple i wanted to say clock tower is not working. The time is what i saw from First time i enter the college for registration. So is the students here, they can’t change here. The same Students howling group barking late night. The same fan of Bob Marley but not to his singing, to its negative culture. The same face who would come to class late drunk death. The same face absent whole day in the classes.

So, if people can trust to beauty of Clock tower found in Sherubtse College, Why can't we trust ourselves to beauty we have as a student of Sherubtse. Some People say Sherubtse is just physical beauty. Are they right?
Ask anyone. They will say yes. Student cannot tolerate piece of paper lying inside their room, forget fixing the blocked bathroom or fixing water tap for own drinking. What is happening is what is on my mind. Is it because of clock tower which has been not working since I saw it for the first time or it’s just the saga here or it will be the saga till I graduate from here? But I got lots more scenes to be watched.

If one people can change the world, why can't we change ourselves for good reasons and be a True Sherubtsean. My only wish is to have inner beauty and brightening side of us and one last wish "Time changing          
every second on our Clock Tower.